Death, Rebirth, Revelation

Thanks Amanda for sharing this! Bang bang, spot-on! 2023 was the worst year of my life. I was an existential zero near spiritual death in June, the most important loving commitments in life were in jeopardy, and now in 2024 I’m crossing a new threshold. I’ve experienced rebirth energy multiple times in life, but I haven’t felt THIS type of energy since 1998.

I now know and have relearned again that I don’t know what’s coming around the bend, Uncertainty is causality (and uncertainty is scary) and know I will encounter influences on the hero’s journey. That said, this new existential energy feels empowering, invigorating, honest and refreshing! The Unknown and being Uncertain is what is certain. It reminds me I’m alive, and it’s time to thrive. Thanks family, friends and professionals for walking with me, helping me move my paralyzed and broken spirit forward to begin healing and for the overarching encouragement to shed unrecognizable despondence.

TRIALS & FAILURE

I’m done trying to fix broken people. I’m also done with poor communication styles of my past, expecting important people in my life to understand my feelings & thoughts when I don’t communicate them in an assertive way, or when they are unable to reciprocate. Past passive-aggressive communication style is a disease of my past and good riddance. That toxic communication is self-defeating, immature, and doesn’t serve anyone, especially the most important loved ones I care for. From now on, I will always express what’s on my mind in a clear, consistent way and never expect people to guess what I’m thinking or feeling. Life is too short to behave otherwise. To those I’ve hurt, hurt me back! I can take punches.

To my loves I’ve pushed away, I hope the universe sends positive energy to bring you love and happiness you deserve. If my new arc hits a node, snap it back in, create a new datum and send the vector on a new trajectory. If your universe rejects it, peace be with you and enjoy your merry march. I’ll always keep faithful eyes, ears, thoughts and my heart open should paths merge again.

I’ve got a long way to go to complete this cycle but it has finally begun. One love.